i wish i could get out of this funk. i've just been so bummed about the wait. it's been almost 8 months already. eight months on the list, a year and 5 months since we started. argh! man is it challenging to stay "up" all the time. to stay positive about it. ah, i knew this came with the territory. my mom always told me it took 2 years to bring me home—and that was over thirty years ago! not much has changed in all this time! haha. and honestly, up to recently, i feel like i've been handling the wait pretty good. i haven't let it get to me too much, tried not to dwell on it.
but, lately something has gotten a hold of me and i can't shake it! i want to, but all i keep thinking is "when, when, when?". something, anything. c'mon... good news head this way, please!! and i know other PAPs will understand this... but it seems like EVERYONE i know is pregnant right now. which is awesome and i'm so thrilled for all our friends and i wish them a healthy pregnancy! i'm def jealous of them :) knowing they can start their families. luckies! but here we sit, just waiting and wondering for ourselves, not really knowing anything. what a bummer it is.
i'll snap out of it sooner or later.
